Recently I’ve been thinking about children. More specifically, do I want any of my own? Growing up I never had the desire to get married let alone become a mom, but of course I did end up getting married – the first of all my friends to boot! I seem to go through these spurts of wanting a house full of loud and crazy ginger kids to wanting none at all. The fact that I’m a flip-flopper definitely means I’m not ready to be a parent just yet, but I’m left wondering if I’ll ever have the inclination to have kids.
My coworker has been talking to me about her family life, she has a 10 year old daughter and a 6 year old son and her life completely revolves around them. She and her husband never have time for one another and when they do grab a moment alone one of her kids always seems to interrupt requiring attention. When I mentioned travelling back to Switzerland with my husband next year her face took on this “Only in my dreams…” look and she told me she wished she could go out to a quiet dinner let alone travel. Even something as spontaneous as going to an afternoon R-rated movie, which Richard and I love to do, would be difficult for her.
I don’t want to give up my ability to go to a Sunday matinee, book random vacations to Europe, wear a size 4, take afternoon naps on the weekend… Having one baby, let alone five, is such a huge commitment that I don’t forsee myself being ready to take on in the near future. I’m selfish, what can I say. I am amazed by people like my sister who works her ass off to raise a nearly 3 year old and a 10 month old baby. I have no idea how she does it because I am exhausted after one afternoon playing “Monsters” with Sophie.
Richard and I decided we need to make a plan so that we ensure we do everything we want to do as a couple before taking the plunge into parenthood. On my post Ten Before Thirty I had the goal of having a baby before reaching my 30th birthday. Since I don’t want to go to all the trouble of updating my blog post, so ya’ll can probably count on me getting knocked off the NIGHT BEFORE I turn 30. TMI? Probably.
I’m probably jinxing myself by posting my wants online because life never works out the way we expect it. Whatever happens in my life, kids or no kids, I’m happy that I have an awesome husband by my side who is ready to do whatever I want to do whenever I want to do it. What more could a girl ask for?